First of all, I hope everyone who read this had a decent Valentine's Day. Personally, mine came with a fair bit of red tape. Add in the complicated twists and my life's oddities are beginning to resemble a horrible Mexican Soap Opera. A week before Valentine's Day, I realized two of my exes (Sam, the yo-yo of commitment and the ex who asked my out under the influence of alcohol) are bffs. Wait! There's more. They discovered they both dated me and are bonding over it. There's one more twist in that. Sam wants me back. All this right before Valentine's Day!
Obviously, I shut the door on Sam before he could even step on my doormat. Good thing too. (this just keeps getting better)
I found out that shortly after I turned him down he was engaged!
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Engageeedd!
Then, Valentine's Day weekend rolled around and despite my best attempts, I was available for the weekend. Thus, Nate jumped on the opportunity. I tried to scare him off like I scare everyone off by telling him to talk with my parents.
He did, and sure enough, the Friday before Valentine's Day he surprised me with this massive flower arrangement. It was bigger than what my dad got my mom. X< What shocked me though was he tracked down my favorite flower (a certain type of lily) down to the point where he called in 4 different cities in the area to track it down. He then proceeded to buy me this adorable bear (that also happened to be at least 4 times bigger than what Alex got me last year) and he took me out to dinner... and then bowling... all this without me having to pay any part of the bill for the first time in my life. It was great and he's a nice guy but something happened that day that made me really put to the breaks on any type of relationship.
As you know, I was accepted to Texas State. While I was pretty happy with it, I wanted to wait towards the end of the month to see if I was accepted anywhere and if I didn't hear from them, I would just go on my merry way to Texas State. Since then, I have been accepted to:
-University of Miami
-Loyola University
-Texas A&M International University
-Baylor University
And the very Friday that Nate took me on a date, I received my acceptance letter from the University of Missouri, my dream school where I will be studying at the best Journalism School in the US.
Having been accepted to that school, I realized that there is no way I can get attached right now to anyone. Don't get me wrong. I tried very hard to convince myself to fall for Nate. He is a great guy and I feel like he deserves someone who can be with him without any complications. I feel like such an idiot but I know I'm making the right decision in not dating.
Apparently though, life just can't get anymore twisted.
Very recently, I reconnected with a friend of mine who I've known for years. Only to my surprise, she and my Russian pen pal, another good friend of mine are suddenly friends. This comes to a total shock to me. Two people from very different parallels of my past come together, and all without me even getting involved. While I think it's great that two of the most inteligent and interesting people of my life are now friends, it did kind of phase me a bit. They talk to each other more than they talk to me! Haha.
Like I said, my life is getting stranger than fiction but it's things like friendship and these new adventures that keep me going. When you put all the broken and random pieces together, it makes something very interesting. I can't wait for some new adventures. Right now, that's the only thing keeping me hanging on. I'll be leaving soon and while it's scary to leave the small town in Texas, leave my family behind and leave everything I have ever known, it's an experience that I'd be foolish to give up on. I just have to find the strength within myself to make it happen.
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